Tuesday, February 20, 2018

new year and thoughts

I am so sorry for my parents and I feel so terrible and hopeless. This should have been a good time for us, new year and reunion, but my parents and I could not be happy because I could not get a girl friend. A year has passed and things haven't changed much. I am pretty happy with my career but with my relationship - something must go wrong so badly.

I have been trying to find my other half for so long, and haven't succeeded. There are the ones I liked so badly but they never had the same feelings for me. I stucked. I strived. Whenever a hope pops out, I am happy to take the chance, but then it would be more desperated and hopeless. I couldn't dream big anymore, I have to accept the reality and work hard on what I can change.

Life's tough

We are finding meaning of our existence, at the same time, we fight for the things we don't need. We want more and more stuffs, money, and luxury. But none of them really matters. I am not happy when I have a lot of money. I am looking for something else.

What's the real importance? That's when we find ourself in peace. We are truly ourself when we find the true half, the ones we love more than anything else in this world, and they feel the same way to us.

Love

We do not regret when we say "I love you". We regret that we didn't, many times. I did say those words to the one I love, and I feel relieved, despite that she didn't give me a chance. No problem!

Life's still going on

We look back and learn. We look ahead and plan. Pain hurts, but it is unavoidable.